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这种微妙的自暴自弃的感觉是怎么回事……

这是我见过的最美的一张大小姐=ω=

无论双马尾还是单马尾，只要是爱理头上的就是好马尾=ω=

和朋友喝酒，我说我也许以后就做个教师或者码农之类的，凄凄惨惨。朋友说你就是被拿住了，被一个研究生文凭拿住了。在这条道路上，有意无意的自我暗示，和潜移默化的耳濡目染，没有人强迫你，你被生活的惯性拖向一条没有尽头的延长线。没人强迫你做教师，也没人强迫你做理论，只是在这种context下，被人群推蹂着无意识移动而已。

自我暗示的放大作用非常可怕，就像我怕了5年的午夜凶铃。就像我现在也可以无所谓地重温午夜凶铃。

所以不想再自嘲是loser了，我要做人生赢家

朋友们一个二个都出国的出国，工作的工作。原以为读个研究生至少也不算是loser，安慰自己至少也算个二手科学家，其实发现一直在自己骗自己。从小时候开始就不是什么优等生，现在也不可能跨入这些圈子。高一出去通宵打游戏，和网吧老板套近乎，在学校的临时平房宿舍里流着汗，夏天的板房，公共浴室和门外的大榕树。我始终都是那个注意力不集中症，睡眠过剩的一个有着充分混混特质的C优生。走在从讨论会回寝室的路上，最后几个曾经一起研究的同门也要出国了，以后的讨论和研究能不能做下去，我不知道。扶着新买的自行车，被雨淋了个透湿，突然觉得有些忧郁，于是又掉转头去校园超市买了一包5mg的中南海。

从今以后，无论我怎么在睡莲叶子下面努力搜寻，也看不见你的红白条纹了，我很难过。

小小青蛙不输风雨。寄人篱下却不失尊严。我总觉得惭愧。

年年岁岁花相似，岁岁年年人不同。我向所有的苜蓿叶与蔷薇花保证，我会经常想起你。

愿你的灵魂在天堂里安息。

圆滚滚的脸好想捏捏捏捏=ω=

眼镜娘的扮相超可爱的有意见吗=ω=

这么天然的萌物好想抱回家去养着……（不行我真成怪叔叔了囧）

下次一定要让你叫哥哥一百遍！哥哥哥哥~~~

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等等,这种微妙的撒比希的感觉是怎么回事……我才不是死妹控！

不把别人当人的，拐卖妇女的穷山恶水的山民，自然也不能被当作人而享受现代社会的人权。对待脓包的最好方法就是割掉。

去山区支教支你MLGB的，人家姑娘去支教结果被一帮畜生整成生育工具

共同富裕你老母啊，饿死这些傻逼算求了

nujabes

luv (sic.) pt3 feat shing02

It's funny how the music put times in perspective
Add a soundtrack to your life and perfect it
Whenever you are feeling blue keep walking and we can get far
Wherever you are

Like a movie that you can't predict
Like a book that you can't resist
I sing along a song that's oh so sensual
bring along a sip to make it all so sexual
verbally that is, making love to the music means vibing to the beat at night
with the whole city fast asleep, out cold
true words seem to rise to the lips, take hold
of a poet in me, most powerfully
I feel free when the world doesn't owe it to me
It's so hard to find a gig that lives up to the billing,
trying to find a reason to work, god willing
I admit, my thinking is wishful
like a star upon a child gazing up to the ceiling
how far do we have to stretch the truth
to fit the lifestyles borrowed and overdue
we can take it all back to the register
and start all over from the canister
let's break it all down into pieces of bright
moments that pass by like a meteorite
throw on your favorite reel that's good to go
on the analog player watch the people glow
sit back to the breeze let the memories flow
comedy tragedy all the highs and lows

(chorus)

Like your moves that I can't predict
Like your look that I can't resist
The ting-a-ling feeling was oh so mutual
the lingering appeal was so unusual
herbally what is, medicine to a lone soul can become poison to some
with the whole body fast asleep, out cold
true vision seem to come to the eye, take hold
of a prophet in me most visibly
I see clear when the world doesn't show it to me
It's so hard to make sense in a cycle of billing,
trying to find a reason to quit and make a killing
I admit, our dealing is painful
like a star upon a child staring down from the ceiling
how far do we have to stretch the picture
before pixelating the human texture
we can take it all back to the register
and start all over from the canister
let's save it all up for an ultimate prize
homecoming gathering with a big surprise
throw on your favorite record that's good to go
on the analog table and it's hooked to blow
sit back with ease and hear the emcee flow
hi hat kick drum all the highs and lows

(chorus)

Um, third time's the charm, hopefully
when I chime on your door you'd still let me in
after all these years
the room that you caved in my heart is exactly the same as you left it
I realize that you have moved on
new styles and cliques like them silent flicks
I'm speechless in this golden occasion
the beautiful expression on the silver creation
this time I'd like to keep in touch
I'm a likkle bit wiser, a whole lot tougher
if I suffer through another nightmare tonight,
we'll chalk it up as another chapter to write, all right?
or wrong or somewhere down the middle of the road
I wanna see you again in a scene with the backdrop a perfect ten
and the music can take us back to the spot right then
from black and white to a sepia tone
some dreams come with a tint or in monochrome
from black and white to my skin tone
some dreams have a stint on the microphone

(chorus)

okay we can take it all back to the register
and start all over from the canister
let's break it all down into pieces of bright
moments that pass by like a meteorite
throw on your favorite jacket and you're good to roll
on the analog trail and you look the role
just stroll through the trees and let your miseries go
sunshine hurricane all the highs and lows

we can take it all back to the register
and start all over from the canister
let's break it all down into pieces of bright
moments that pass by like a meteorit

“废逼爱好者看片的目的当然不是看片，也不是纯粹的娱乐，而是从动画中寻找所谓的“内涵”。

中二的他们急于摆脱中二状态，于是就像盲头苍蝇一样四处乱飞希望从什么地方找到“内涵”充实自己。

然而，怀着这种不纯的动机去看片的人往往不能发现真正的“内涵”，反而容易钟情于故作深沉、无病呻吟、充斥扭曲价值观和猎奇元素的废逼。

这时，看片已经沦为他们搞“厨蜜战争”“自我包装”的一种工具，懵然不知自己已经脱离原点十万八千里。 ”

“凛是6年纪第一次自X，
而这个是5年纪就当鸡当鸭……
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